I had a dream. I was kind of in the middle of nowhere, in this white, hazy area, just floating in space, I suppose, and I met a spirit guide. She reminded me a lot of Erykah Badu in regards to her appearance and essence. I was standing in front of her, and next to me was this guy, probably around the same age as me. He was talking to another male spirit guide.
The male spirit guide had a very regal, masculine look. He had long, dark hair and darker, tanned skin. He was sitting on a throne while the guy next to me was talking to him. As I stood in front of the woman spirit guide, I started talking to her, quite fast, too. I had a lot to say. I don’t remember exactly what I said, but I remember that she stopped me mid-sentence. She said that I was not to refer to myself as “I.”
I tried to process exactly what she meant by that, but I had no clue. I decided to try addressing myself as someone else. I chose to address myself as my mom. I talked to her again, and instead of saying “I,” I said “my mom.” That apparently wasn’t satisfactory either. Instead, she told me to address myself as “the world.”
What I understood from her saying this was that I was supposed to address myself as humanity—as the collective—instead of just addressing myself as an individual. I found that very interesting. It was almost as if this spirit guide, this being, couldn’t lower her frequency enough to match the individual human. She had to talk to the whole consciousness of planet Earth—the mind of Earth—as one. I was possibly a conduit for the collective consciousness of planet Earth.
After she told me to address myself as the world, I asked my first question. We walked—there was no ground really, we were just kind of walking in the air—and there was this temple in front of me. I projected my consciousness onto this temple, and the words of my question appeared on the side of it. It read: “When you lose your virginity, do you become impure?”
I don’t remember exactly what she said, but it was something along the lines of, “None of that matters. It’s something that has no relevance; there’s no reason for this concept of purity and virginity to exist.”
I understand why purity and virginity are values that society has. Sex has only been seen as its negative side- its possibility to be used as manipulation, a way to objectify and devalue others, etc. Because of this limited mindset, the only way someone could be a good or positive person was if they stayed a virgin.
In reality, everything has a negative side and a positive side. Sex does have a really good side- it can be used to deeply connect with others and spirit through love in the most profound way. People don’t understand or know this positive side to sex because it has been manipulated and twisted for so long. I myself am rewriting my relationship with sex; there’s a lot of deep shame and guilt that I carry with it. If you flinched or brushed off or tried to avoid this section at all in any way, you probably have some deep negativity tied up with sex as well. We all do, it’s in our DNA at this point.
This is why the spirit guide said that the importance of losing one’s virginity and purity was such an impertinent issue. With a more expanded mindset, people can see and know both the positive and negative sides of sex and can choose to have a more positive experience with it. With this, the current views of virginity and purity can dissipate because they will no longer be needed.
As she answered my question, we continued walking past the temple, and as we walked past it, the temple crumbled and fell, along with my question written on it.
We continued walking on air until we entered—or more like appeared in—this other temple-like space. It had tiled flooring, vases on display, and pillars on the inside holding it up. It was very beautiful. We stopped walking and I asked her if she had any spiritual practices; if there was anything like a church where she’s from, and what it’s like.
She gave me an impression that was so far beyond what the human mind could understand. The closest thing was a megachurch-like situation, where there were crowds of people singing and playing music together, but that was still so far off from what she had impressed upon me.
We continued walking through this temple. Throughout this whole time, and especially at this point, I felt very sinful; very gross being around her. She had such a pure frequency about her that it reflected all of my shame that I held inside of me—all of my insecurity, my uncertainty, and my unworthiness. In my personal relationships, I am used to making negative ties with people because I relate to the negativity within them. With this higher being, I couldn’t project my negativity onto her because she had none of it inside herself, so she acted as a mirror. The negativity and darkness in me reflected right off of her and bounced right back to me, so I could see it all so clearly.
I asked her, “Why would you even talk to me when I’m such a low vibrational being?”
She didn’t answer my question. She walked off into the distance and disappeared. And that’s when I woke up.
After waking, I understood that she left after that question because that question in itself was too low vibrational for her. It came from the place of my insecurity and my feeling of being unworthy to be around such a being that was so high vibrational—so clean, so pure, so radiant.
Now, when I say that the question was too low vibrational for her, I don’t mean that she just dismissed me and walked off because she didn’t like me and thought I wasn’t worthy to be around her. She walked off and didn’t answer the question because she was incapable of answering it. She could not engage in discourse with my insecurity and feelings of unworthiness because it was so far off from who she was.
This dream left me with a lot more questions than answers, but I was able to understand my own negative emotions and polarity more deeply. I hope you got something from it, too.